This weekend has not been easy for us, as the economic has hit hard here in Portugal. We live for the ministry, and if we are in itinerant ministry even harder is the feeling of being alone. It is a temporary season. God has told us this.
I was meditating on all this when Jesus spoke about all the things which were about to take place. A situation so traumatic for them was about to take place that their very ambition with being associated with Jesus was to beat down on them so hard.
The majority fled. The majority fell into deep sleep. Against the backdrop of Passover, where Israelites from all the known nations were about to celebrate the birth of their nation. They were to pass through the “sea” of deliverance.
Here we see Jesus in the Upper Room, battling through every principle of the Kingdom, but I doubt if any in that company heard.
When Jesus was seized, the cloud of sadness had already descended on them. The betrayer had been exposed. Now the impending sacrifice was set and programmed.
The majority fled. Peter and John followed. Peter denied the Lord 3 times, understanding that he had failed. Understanding that the Lord had not come for political ambition. His whole world fell apart.
We contrast the meetings in the Upper Room after Jesus’ death. We see fear and uncertainty in a land ripe for revolution. But their leader was dead.
Only in the ressurrection and the 40 days following, did they understand Jesus’ mission. We see the Lord breathe His Spirit on them. It was to regenerate them into a new understanding.
We today are facing a same situation, we really are slow to understand Jesus’ mission. We are slow to understand that unhealthy ambitions are dangerous, and the lord has a way to deal with them. He breaks us from them, brings them to nought.
The universal Church is in crisis of morality, of character. Day by day the world uncovers all the scandals possible. Jesus is shown not to be in the “human confines” of what WE understand to be Church.
So we must really ask the question, where do our ambitions lie?